With everyone making resolutions I bring myself back to the year 2012. What did that year bring for me? What did I gain? What did I lose?
I published my first book, and realized all the mistakes I made publishing it. I'm not trying to be that perfectionist writer.. well, maybe I am, but it's all for a good cause. The book I wrote is in desperate need of professional help! Kudos and thanks go out to Westbow Press for helping me accomplish a dream, but it remains that this is not how I envisioned it.
I have this dream where I write stories, both true and fiction, that help change lives. I want this to be my goal for the next year, to bring my dream to reality. If you've followed my blog and know me beyond the Facebook world, you'd know that I tend to live in the in-between. I'm the girl that watches clouds and finds characters in them. I can walk down the street and someone hammering can become a giant running after me.. I really do have a very active imagination. And I would love you to get to see just what's inside my heart and mind. It's nothing dirty. I don't really like those kinds of things. I like to distance myself from it.
My mind really likes stuff that helps me go to distant worlds full of color and imaginary characters that defeat the bad guy. My favorite writer of all times is C.S. Lewis. I've read his Chronicles of Narnia books at least 3 times and I do believe I want to read it again! I just have to wait because I recently borrowed Lewis Carroll's "Alice in Wonderland, and through the looking glass" from the library and I can't wait to see just where that rabbit hole leads... which reminds me, go visit your local library and take your mind to distant lands! There's just something about a good book.. the smell of it, the feel of it.. my favorite thing in the world is to get lost in a good book.
I tell you all this because I think I have a big goal this year and it scares me a little bit. My goal is not limited to writing, though. It's supported and fed by the need for a better education, and this means I'll be going back to school. I have a bit of a road ahead of me.
This year holds some strong things for me. For example I'd really like to be that person who doesn't just talk the talk, I walk the walk. You know what that means? It means my actions are going to have to speak louder than my words. I made some promises in 2012 that I think need to be filled. So this year will not only be the beginning of things, it will also be the year for making good on promises, finishing what I've started, and continuing with my responsibilities. It's a year of maintaining, but also gaining. It scares me, but I know I have nothing to fear. God would not put these things in my life if He were not fully prepared to make it possible. All I have to do is lean on Him. Pray often, and depend on His provision.. whether it be His wisdom, His finance, or His love. He is Jehovah Jirah - the God who provides. And I believe very strongly that He has already made a way for me.
So I'm asking for your prayer. Your prayers make a difference. They split open the heavenly realms and reach the Father. He hears your words, and smiles. Hearing His children lifting up the needs of another hits His heart, because we are His heart. He redeemed us thoroughly and has no intention of allowing those He redeemed to lift up empty prayers with empty results. Your prayers do not fall on deaf ears. He hears you, whether you feel it or not. Speak to the King and tell Him you are praying for His presence, power, and sovereignty. He is power filled. He owns everything. And there's nothing that can stop Him from hearing us.
Thank you for reading my heart. Because that's what these writings are. My heart out loud. I'm not perfect, and I don't know everything. But what I do know is that I'm learning. I'm learning to grow with you. Thank you for sharing my journey, I hope you continue to follow me, because as long as I'm breathing my lessons will never be done.
Happy New Year, and heres to an amazing 2013!
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